Lude Generation

One day at a time though. This is day eight
Those that have known me for years know that both my ex wife and my wifes ex husband were alcoholics and that ruined many years of our lives.

I have noticed since I retired and my health got worse I would just have a Scotch to calm my nerves or take away some of the pain, I was drinking and having Prescribed morphine at the same time that did the trick.

I went from one bottle of scotch a week to a couple of litre bottles a week along with cider and beer.

The crunch came when I ran out of any booze and picked up the car keys to go and get some more. Fortunately at that moment sanity returned and I slung the car keys across the room made a cup of coffee and thought of all the misery that out of control drinking had caused me,my wife and her family.

Am I an Alcoholic ,I don't know, was I just doing it to numb the pain,again I don't know.

All I know is I don't sit there shaking and craving a drink and I feel better in myself(so far)

For many years I went to Al-Anon for relatives and friends of Alcoholics and ferried Alcoholics and sat through AA meetings.
So out of all people I should have perhaps recognised warning signs more than most.

As I always say if you enjoy a drink in moderation please do. At the moment I feel that I was using it as a crutch and to me that is wrong. I hope I can continue happily without alcohol , this remains to be seen.

This is from my heart and I hope you do not mind such a gloomy post.

Paul

Well done Paul. One day at a time.

Bravo on your progress so far and best of luck with your future path.

Good for you matey. Takes real balls to even admit to the problem, which you have so publicly done. I can't imagine the torture you're going through but I bet you there's a ton of folks here giving you 100% support. At the risk of sounding like a broken record, one day at a time Paul, one day at a time.
Take it easy,
Regards
Simon.

good man, sincere congratulations. i was in a similar situation 5 years ago, but it was my wife. i work all hours under the sun to make ends meet and she looked after the house and kids and turned to drink whilst i was working in the evenings. times were hard and she has been off drink for 3.5 years now. so keep going bud.

don't feel bad if you have a relapse, your a long way away. and it can be a hard and lonely journey too. but remember bud. you got us here. good luck.

Sir you're an hero for recognizing the problem and willing to do something about it. Lost a dear friend of mine because he couldn't handle himself around alcohol and could not keep himself from the stuff (no worry's still alive but not my friend anymore, not after what he's done).
Good luck and you've got my support

well done paul good to see you fighting everything thats thrown at you keep it up young man

Well done mate.

Good luck with getting over it.

They say that most addiction/abuse is a way of masking over a life problem. Try and solve your life problem and the need to abuse may pass.

Good man paul.